Hi and a great day to all of you! It seems that I'm back on track and that is all due to my fantastic hubby!:-) I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your truly wonderful comments and words of compassion and support. It means a world to me!!! I couldn't believe how many people have to deal with depressions though! Not that I thought I was the only one in the world, no:-), but still it was surprising to see how many of you have been in a similar situation. Now I also know well how it feels and admire all of you who have dealt with it and left it behind. And I send my love and positive thoughts to those who haven't managed to superate it yet {HUGS, HUGS, HUGS} To explain finally what was wrong...I'll try to be brief:-) The main problem that caused my depression was LONELINESS. See, I have been on maternity leave for a few years and never had a problem, always had friends to catch up with, go to playgroups, swimming, music and dancing classes with Amaia. Even in Holland (not so much there though) and Scotland we managed to find new friends and meet up with other mums with kids. Unfortunately here, as I already mentioned in one my previous posts, most babies start nursery in early months (if not weeks) of their lives and so 99% of the babies of Eneko's age are scholarized already. We didn't have anybody to hang out with! I used to meet a few grandparents strolling on the streets with buggies but nobody ever went to playgrounds (they're scarce here anyway:-(...) Grandparents usually go out to have a morning coffee in a bar and do some grocery shopping in the mornings and then straight home to prepare lunch. So...since most of the babies are at nurseries (or grocery shopping with grannies:-)) there are no activities for mums with babies at all!!! No playgroups, no music, no swimming...and there's also nowhere to go when it rains (and it has rained a whole lot since last summer). Put it all together plus due to my broken ribs first and then pregnancy I couldn't go horseback riding (which was keeping me 'alive' before)...and there you are...It got really bad and I saw I couldn't handle it alone so I went to a psychologist in the end. I lost all the interest in scrapping, friends and outside world in general. Didn't even check my email for months...We were thinking of moving to Prague to be close to my family at least for a few years but we're staying in the end. My husband quit working and has been at home with me since February and that was what helped me get out of it in the first place. I have my best friend by my side every day and it makes a HUGE difference, I can tell you! And he could also see for himself it's no fun when there're not only no other parents with kids but also very few chances to get friends with someone...and told me he was not surprised I got like that when he himself experienced it. Actually, he said he was surprised I was holding on for so long:-) But it's over now!:-)

Sooo...I hope I'll get here more often now and also to your blogs! Well, at least until the little one is born! LOL I've been doing some shopping lately and also working a little, done a few new LO's, mainly for my pregny diary. And changed the blog too, right:-) Still don't feel too much like scrapping or designing (although I have a lot of material) and I want to create only when I feel like it and not because I 'have to' so I resigned from all my CT's and I'm taking it very easy:-)

The pregnancy is going very well, I haven't had any problems. Lately I'm getting a lot of Braxton-Hicks contractions but that's normal at this stage. It's unbelievable but I'm now 34 weeks, only 6 weeks left. My due date is July 21st and I think it'd be pretty funny if Julen (read 'yulen' for English speaking peeps) decides to come out a little earlier because both Amaia and Eneko are born on the 20th (Sept and Oct respectively)!!! Still seems an eternity until we get to know our youngest one. According to the ultrasounds it's all fine with the little one, seems to be a little bigger than he should be so I hope he won't get too huge in the next 6 weeks!

And I thought it'd be a shame if you got all the way here with me and see no proof of progress:-))) My DD has been painting and I've been cutting. And it's all yours if you want it! Hope you like it...Enjoy:-) Here's the preview:


And you can download here.

And to finish, here are my latest LO's:

Credits here.


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Credits here.

Credits here.

I guess that's more than enough for today!:-) Hope you'll have a great weekend and thank you all again for your friendship!:-) See you soon!

Hello....anybody still there....?:) I'm slowly getting back to normal life, step by step...have to explain you a lot of things though But I won't do it today...only in short - nothing deadly serious, no...I've just been in a very bad shape...mentally...the psychologist called it a 'deep depression':) That's it. Other than that we're all fine, the kids are growing (too fast, especially the little man - Brooke!:)) And, actually, they're gonna get a little brother soon:) I'm glad I finally got the courage to post here, really! That's a big step forward for me. So I'll tell you the details some other day, ok? And I'm really sorry that I've left you without a note of any kind, I completely closed myself out of the digiworld, have not even come to this blog for months...let alone my email....but I'm getting better, as you can see:) Hope you forgive me...love you all!

Hi everybody, I'm here again! That means it's Friday, right?lol How are you doing and how has your week been? Mine has been LAZY! Yes, believe it or not, I've been very lazy...instead of scrapping or working I spent 2 evenings watching a movie this week! Haven't done it in ages!

Last weekend we had Eneko's first birthday party, it was fun, he didn't really care about the toys and cake but was very happy with all the kids there. I made a layout using a few photos:

Credits here.

And I've only done a couple more pages - one for our vacation album (after a while):

Credits here.

And Another one for DigiDare - the theme was to scrap a PHASE:

Credits here.

And I've just actually found out this afternoon that I WON the DigiDare with this one! Not the random winner but the PICK! WOW! I was so surprised! And HAPPPPYYYYY!!!! Totally made my day!

The kids have had a bit of a tough week. The weather is crazy and they're both with cold and caugh. Eneko has been practicing some walking (he's getting better!) and falling. On Wednesday he tripped close to a bench and he's got a nice bruise under his eye:((( There was a chunk of dry cement and I didn't see it. And I was right next to him....:( Oh well, he's still gonna fall so many times. Sometimes I think he could use a rugby helmet:)

Hey, freebie, right? I have been playing around a lot with a new glitter style. It has a lot of possibilities and it looks great on paper (but not on the flowers I made last week, for instance). For now, I've made this alpha for you:


I couldn't decide on the color and then tried to do each letter different but it didn't look nice. So I made all the same. I realized that I haven't really made any 'fall' stuff. So this is it:) It's kind of golden and it looks great on the rich fall colors. I'm gonna make more colors though because it's not easy to recolor. Some could be for spring, summer, winter...lol! How about adding some wor dart, what do you think? I've done some frames too and they look fab, I'm just working on a layout that I needed it for (can't show you yet, it's not finished:))) I've never been to much into glitter but I find that it can really add some pop to your page. I'm also trying some overlays, you know that kind of subtle glitter that just lightens the LO a bit. Would you like that? Anyway, I always forget to tell you - if you have any ideas, suggestion what you'd like me to make - let me know!!! You know I read your comments:)))

Oh my, almost forgot the DL link, lol!!! HERE you can download the alpha plus bonus paper.

And that's it for today!!! Have a great weekend and see you next week! Oh, no, not next week - we're going to Prague next week so there will be no freebie!!! Do you hate me? lol I'm SOOOO much looking forward to Prague and spending a week with my hubby!!! We're gonna go for walks, eat outside, go salsa dancing...I'm taking the laptop with me but you know how it was with the connection last time...so see you in two weeks! Hugs to you all!

Good morning, afternoon, evening...or just happy Friday to you!!! First of all I wanted to thank you for your comments, I haven't expected any, lol!! You are SO sweet, guys!!! Patty Anne - yours just made me cry, would you believe that? (no, I'm not pregnant, lol!) THANK YOU ALL!!!

All righty, ready for a long week's resume? lol Or you can skip, there is a freebie at the end:)))
A lot of news this week - the most important one is that my Mr. Man (LOVE that nick, Brooke!:)) who is turning 1 YEAR tomorrow (where the hell the time goes!?!) made his FIRST SOLO STEPS 3 days ago! It was hilarious, we were in the playground and he was holding on a rope and wanted to come to me. So he made 3 steps and then fell on his face before I managed to catch him. He didn't hurt himself because the floor was soft but half of his face was black from the mud. Wish I had a picture. The combination of a surprise and mud on his cheeks was irresistible!!! Tomorrow we'll have a party for him (well, more for all the kids in the family). More pictures to scrap!

Another news is that the page - the ministry of health - I had been doing the banners for has finally gone live. In case you want to check, it's here. All the pictures except for the header and the bottom right (with the heads) are mine. Nothing fancy, I know, I was quite restricted in terms of colors and also the actual banners are much wider than the pictures so I had to kind of 'blend it' to the background. The blinkie pictures were also defined, except for the one with flower. I personally like most the bottom left one with books. Anyway, the owe me, lol! It wouldn't be bad to get a job like that.

Earlier this week I read a series of really nasty articles in Czech tabloids. I normally don't read tabloids at all but my mom sent them to me because one of my best friends is involved. Quite a sad story about three women, three children and one man. It wouldn't be anything too unusual if one of our best Czech sportsmen wasn't involved too. The tabloid stories just made me so sick that I had to get it out and I made a layout, for my friend, to support her. I feel so bad being 1200 miles away from her...thanks God for Skype though:) So I made this layout - it's a two-pager (my first one!) because there was so much journaling that I couldn't possibly fit it on one page!:)


If you care to read the story, it's here: part 1 and part 2. I just wish I was there:(

Onto brighter things now:) I've also made these two layouts that I had sitting in my computer for a while :

Credits here.

Credits here.

Have you had enough yet? No? I'll add one more, lol. I finished it this morning for the new CRD challenge that is up today. You can check this thread for details:) It's been SOOOO much fun!!!

Credits here.

Okay, okay, enough!:) Freebie time!!! Yes, I got it done! Well, at least a part of it:) I'm working on more styles but so far I've done these:


Man, that freaking rhinestone was driving me nuts, couldn't get it the way I wanted. Spent like 2 freaking days on it, lol! Download here if you like them:) Eh, just noticed that the preview kind of sucks, you can't really see it. Should have included a detail. Oh well, you're not buying it so if you don't like them after unzipping, just delete them:)

One more thing - you may have realized that Divine Digital is changing servers and there's been some problems. I haven't managed to upload some products yet:( Just in case you'd be wondering where they are....and last thing - I've been reported some 'lost' emails, not replying to people etc. - some emails just end up in my spam and therefore I don't reply:( Unfortunately I don't have time to check spam so if you email me and I don't get back to you within 3 days, please leave a message here on the blog or PM me at DST!

Okay, off to have dinner, I'm exhausted now!LOL

Thank you and have an awesome evening and weekend!

Happy Friday to all of you!!! Well, hope you ARE having a happy Friday because today I'm NOT gonna make you happier....I have NO FREEBIE for you! Can you believe it??? I'm so sorry guys but I just HAVEN'T HAD TIME! I've been working on it -last weekend I was up until 5 a.m. both Friday and Saturday (darling hubby got up with the kids in the morning so I could sleep until 10 am...did I say how much I love him???) but then things got crazy and I haven't had time to finish:( I tried last night but it wouldn't come the way I wanted. I got so stressed about it last night and this morning that my hubby thought I had gone nuts, lol. I just hate to disappoint you, guys! But I'd also hate giving out something that is not worth it...freaking perfectionist, lol. I'll have more time to play around next week so I hope I'll get it done. I have a couple of things in works so at least one of them!

***WARNING*** If you have come just for a freebie you don't need to read further. This is not a test. There's REALLY NO FREEBIE at the end of the post!!! LOL

And what have I been doing that I haven't had time? I'll tell you - SCRAPPING my butt off! LOL It all started last weekend when my hubby came from work with yet more 'homeworks'. I spent 4 freaking hours on an animated GIF they wanted for the main page. I said I was not doing anything else for free anymore. It started as a favor and in the end I made almost the whole page! Anyway, they liked it so much that they didn't even want to change anything (pretty surprising for a government org they're always so picky,lol) and said they'd probably contract me for next year, heeehee...and then I've been getting all set up for my new dream gig at Christina's, getting to know each other and stuff. In the meantime I remembered I had promised Angie (Ikea Goddess) to make a layout for Monday's challenge at Weeds&Wildflowers blog hosted by her. It was fun and I finally got to scrap those photos - this was my entry for 'first' theme - first curls of my son:

Credits here.

In between we got an email from our W&W CT captain that Heidi Williams had a new product out - a collab with Saxon Holt (Sophia Sarducci) and that it'd be highly appreciated to have a layout posted by Monday on it's release. Huh....I don't know if I ever told you but I'm usually a very slow scrapper. I have basic ideas of a layout but then it takes me FOREVER to find the right stuff. Sometimes I get stuck for two hours on the right FONT!!! Well, I didn't have a problem with this one because I just used stuff from that collab. But it took me FOREVER to ensemble and layer ALL those leaves (all the different glitter and stitched outlines come in separate png files)!!!

Credits here.

The next day Christina announced a new product and you know how it goes, it's really nice to have the layouts done BEFORE the product goes to the store, lol. So I started to work on this one (that took me 2 days - had everything and got stuck with the placement of the title:))) Love the background - it's Christina's brand new yummy pack of Filthy Canvas:

Credits here.

And again, in the meantime (lol), I found there was supposed to be a blog challenge at CRD this Friday 'High School Love Song' and, of course, I wanted to participate. Mojo was not coming and all I could think of was Wind Of Change by The Scorpions because that WAS our high school antheme. Not a love song though. Anyway, too late and I came up with this (and it took me ONE hour!lol):

Credits here.

After that I went through my CD's, found a love song and scrapped another one that I finished last night - also Filthy Canvas and one of rare photos of my hubby (he usually makes silly faces:)) :

Credits here.

And this one that I finished today because I had to catch up with sweet Antonio's stuff - did I tell you that I'm on his team? I got and invitation shortly after Christina's. He's got fantastic frames (well, and the paper is mine, lol!) and he's fine with using just a few items on a layout:

Credits here.

All right, that's enough, no more LO's! As you can see, I've been seriously scrapping my butt off, lol! I have another two layouts that have to be done by Monday and then I can go designing again. I'm actually gonna have more time now (hopefully) because I decided to resign on Weeds and Wildflowers CT. Well, 'resign'...there have been some changes - each one of the ladies wants to have her own personal CT (which I think is a very good idea) so they were going to split us. In the end they decided to start from scratch and had a public CT call (that ends TONIGHT! - in case you're interested and haven't noticed) . I decided not to continue so I can have more time for designing. (not that Christina doesn't keep us busy, lol!)

And that's about it, guys. Sorry again to disappoint you today! It won't become a habit, I swear, lol! And thanks a lot for all your sweet comments you leave!!! I'm gonna try to leave some love for you too now! (Yeah, Brooke, I know, I've been 'going' to your blog since last weekend!!! going right there!)

Thank you for stopping by and have an awesome weekend!

Happy Friday again, lol! I don't know how it comes that I never get to post during the week! I've been about to post since Monday and then I was trying to finish the Grab Bag for this weekend and do a layout with the new beautiful kit from Gina Marie Huff - Painting A Dream that is available at Funky Playground Designs for the month of October since she's guesting there.

Credits and journaling here.

It didn't turn out quite as I wanted to but I like it. Especially the ribbon. I had to do quite some work on the photo though because it was my hubby who was shooting and he focused on the cake, lol! Anyway, I loved the photo so the work was worth it.

Okay, the layout I have finished...What I HAVEN'T finished is the Grab Bag. I had two things ready and didn't manage to finish the third one. Plus the freebie for today was not complete either. So instead of stressing myself (I've been quite lazy this week, I admit. Well, not lazy but kind of without drive and home-Praguesick) I was just like 'oh screw the grab bag, I'll put it as a freebie':) But then it was way too big (again, hehe) so here's what I decided to do (to save something for the store this time, lol!) - a sampler from the two things I had prepared for the GB. It was a paper pack called Simply Fall and a set of three satin wrappers. This is the preview of the pack:


I really like how it turned out. I don't have the preview of the ribbons yet but they're those you'll get today - I put one from each set for you. In the pack there're 20 different colors of each type. I'll work on the preview tonight and upload it in the store as well.

I've also put up another pack this week - Worn Out Polkas (one of them you can fully see on this LO - see, I'm finally CTing for myself to, anybody wants to join?lol). This one has turned out beautifully too! I feel I'm getting better!:) No, really, what do you think guys?


Enough 'business talk' and let's show you the freebie:


It contains two papers from the Simply Fall pack, three wrappers (with drop shadows included in a separate .png file) and since I love making frames I also added two vintage paper frames as a bonus:) And HERE is the link. Hope you like it, enjoy!

Thank you all for your awesome comments on the wooden blocks, I'm SOOOOO happy you liked them!!! It was way worth the effort! BTW, the blisters are gone:) And remember today is the last day you can get them, I'll be removing the link tomorrow morning!

Oh, and I actually have a news for you. Guess who I'll be CTing for??? Hint? Ok - C....R....D!!! Yes, Christina Renee!!! I got a PM from her on Monday that she'd love to have me on her team. Well, I'm kinda busy but...who could tell NO to this awesome lady, lol! I own most of the stuff in her store anyway, lol.

Other than that nothing new. Oh, my little man gave me a surprise today. He was sleeping in the stroller in his room. We came from outside and he was sleeping, so I put him there and had a chance to work a bit. So he's sleeping, right. When he wakes up he usually talks to his teddy for a bit and then when he gets bored he starts to scream 'mama', 'mama'! Then it's time for me to go. Today I heard him wake up and then all of a sudden he started to cry. So I ran there and he was HANGING HEAD DOWN from the side of the buggy! I mean he was TIED! And somehow he managed to get out and crawl over the side and fall. He didn't hit himself because his head was way above the floor but one of his feet got stuck in the straps....uffff, what a shock. I remember Amaia ended up hanging once too. She hated to be strapped in the pushchair so I bought walking reins for her. You know, those you put on the kid and you have a 'leash' on the other side. I used to strap her in that one in the pushchair so she wouldn't fall (coz she loved to go standing up!) and once she lost balance and fell over the side but the reins saved her from hitting the floor, of course. She used to be such a pain sometimes because she just couldn't sit still for a second. Well, she still can't! She has to be moving all the time, little thingy.

Okay, guys, better get started with preparing dinner now. Have an awesome week (I'm not expecting to see you before next Friday, hehe) and please leave me some love if you download:) Luv ya!

Good Friday to everyone! Here I am again and today with a treat. Ehhhmmm, I think I've overdone it a bit this time, guys. lol I was so excited about it that I realized the size of it when I wanted to zip it....it's yummy and different, see if you like it:


I was inspired by my daughter's wooden blocks and I thought it would be fun and unique. I love the result, it looks so cool with the peeled paint and bumpy edges! There's a whole lot of love in it, each letter took me about 20 minutes to extract so count how many hours I've been extracting..got blisters on my butt, lol! That's why it wasn't finished last week... The set contains upper and lower case and numbers - those have different texture. And I also added that cute trolley for you and a paper made of those blocks. I have to warn you though - this alpha, unlike my other stuff - is not versatile at all! It comes in red, green, blue and yellow and since it's texture is so unique (see the details) it's impossible to recolor. But I'm sure it'd be great on kids layouts. I've actually used the alpha for my new header (you can find full credits for the header in the bottom of the left column). Now, since each letter is about 4 MB, the whole thing came out HUGE!!! I had to split it in SEVEN parts! So if you dare and have the patience (LOL) here are the links (the 'extras' contain the trolley and paper). SORRY, THE LINKS HAVE BEEN REMOVED! ON TO THE STORE THEY GO NOW:)

Woohooo! Okay, I promise I won't do it again! lol

Have a great weekend and please leave me some love if you DL, need to recharge (once per seven downloads is enough:))